A Short History of Women
By
KATE WALBERT
First Chapter
The
soldiers keep Dorothy in view. She carries the tripod, unsteadily, and an extra
poncho for a bib. That they have let her come this far might be due to weather,
or possibly the kinds of amusements of which she remains unaware. Still, she
assumes that they watch, tracking her as she stomps along the fence and
positions herself by the sign that clearly states: No Trespassing, Government
Property, Photography Forbidden.
It
has turned a wet September, everywhere raining so the leaves, black and slick,
paste to the soles of her boots. Really, they are Caroline's, Wellingtons
borrowed from the back of the hallway closet where earlier Dorothy rummaged as
Charles watched, wondering where she could possibly be going in such weather.
She
turned, boot in hand.
"It's
raining," he repeated.
Deaf
at most decibels, Charles refused to wear aids (vanity? fear?), preferring to
cast his voice into silence, hoping for an echo or a nod.
"Nowhere,"
she had said, because this is nowhere, or anywhere, or somewhere not
particularly known: an hour's drive north if you took the busy roads, and then
country, mostly, the drizzle graying the already gray landscape. Ye olde
etcetera — cornfields, silos, a ravaged billboard for Daniel's peas, fresh from
California, though this is technically Delaware and the land of soybeans.
Ducks, too, the fall season in full swing; the drizzle split by the crack crack
crack of the hunters' guns.
She
parks near the drainage ditch that edges the fence, chain link, as if for dogs,
though there are no dogs here, only a guard tower, a landing field, and the
soldiers who wait for the planes. But that isn't right, exactly. The place is
vast, a city of a place, with barracks — are those called barracks? — and
trucks and cul-de-sacs and no doubt children sleeping, army brats — or is this
marines? — in the two-story housing labyrinth not so distant from where she
gets out, near the drainage ditch, near the landing field, near the place where
the plane will descend. This she knows. The rest — the presence of children,
the numbers involved, the ranking, the hierarchy — she truthfully has no idea.
Dorothy
skewers the tripod in the mud and adjusts the poncho to cover her. Today, she
plans to fight back. She can almost taste it; see herself in her resistance:
Dorothy Barrett, granddaughter to the suffragette, mother to three: Caroline,
Liz, and the dead one, James; wife to Charles. She mounts the camera on the
track and angles the lens toward where the plane will descend — they come from
the East, she has learned, out of Mecca, the bodies mostly coffined, then
wrapped in flags, but sometimes carried in a tiny box.
"Christ,
Mother," Caroline said after the first arrest, the fine. "Get a
life."
"Your
great-grandmother starved to death on principle; she literally ate
nothing."
"I
know, I know. I've seen the postage stamp," Caroline said.
"I
think it changed things then," Dorothy said. "To do something. She
made up her mind; she took a stand -"
"And
look what happened to your dad? Anyway, you said she might have been
unbalanced. A bit insane, wasn't she? You've said that before. She might have
been suffering from -"
"Hysteria?"
Dorothy said, hearing her own tone of voice — hysterical. "The point is,
she did something."
"It's
illegal to take pictures there."
"This
is a free country."
"Please,"
Caroline said.
The
two sat at Caroline's kitchen table, Caroline in one of her suits meant for
business, her cigarette burning in the ashtray a ten-year-old James had spun out
of clay. Caroline's daughter, little Dorothy, is elsewhere, having reached the
age of the disappeared — her voice shouting orders from behind the locked door
of her bedroom or even standing present, her body a studded cast of her former
self; if she is somewhere within it she is very, very deep.
"I
should never have told you I voted for him," Caroline said.
"I
would have guessed."
"Consider
my client base," Caroline said.
"Please,"
Dorothy said.
"Anyway,
the law has to do with respect," Caroline said. "Or something. They
make the rules for a reason, I'm sure. It's none of our business. None of your
business."
"Says
who?" Dorothy said, to which Caroline had some sort of reply.
Dorothy
listened for a while, and then she did not; she thought of other things, how
she would like to have believed that not so long ago Caroline would have stood
beside her at the fence, that she, former president of the student council and
Future Leaders for Justice, might have carried a sign or at least shouted an
obscenity. But this was before Caroline divorced and took that new job in the
Financial District. The Dead Zone, she called it, but the money's good, she
said. It's serious money.
"Mother?"
"I
was listening," Dorothy said.
"Forget
it," Caroline said. She tapped her nails, those nails, on the table, then
the doorbell rang — pizza delivery — and the conversation ended.
"Dinnertime,"
she yelled in the direction of the door.
Crack.
Crack. Crack.
The
soldiers have had enough. They climb down from their tower to slog through duck
country, technically Delaware, the first state, though most have trouble with
the history; one can hear their boots, or is that frogs? The sucking. Soon
enough they'll reach her. Dorothy records their magnified approach; records
them unlocking the gate and stepping to the other side, records their blank
expressions. The trouble is she can only pretend to hate them.
"Good
morning, Mrs. Barrett." This from the one Dorothy calls Tweedledee.
She
straightens up, adjusts the poncho.
"We'll
remind you that you're trespassing. That taking photographs is forbidden."
"Today,"
she says, hand on tripod. "I plan to resist."
Their
arms remain folded. Four pair, as usual; a pack; a team; a unit, perhaps, or
would they be a regiment? No, a regiment is bigger, a regiment is many. She
tries to remember from mornings James explained the exact order of things —
sergeant to lieutenant to captain to king — his miniature warriors arranged
throughout the house in oddly purposeful groupings. She would find them everywhere,
assaulting a sock, scaling the Ping-Pong table, plastic, molded men with
clearly defined weaponry and indistinct faces. When she banished them to his
room, fearing someone would trip and break a bone, James had cried and cried.
"That
would be more than your usual fine, Mrs. Barrett."
He is
a horse's ass, but then again, a boy once James's age, who should be pitied.
"I
plan to resist," she repeats. One of the Mute Ones has his and out as if
to help her across the muddy plain. They are waiting, she knows, for Dorothy to
do something. Collapse, she thinks, then does, more a buckle than a collapse,
knowing full well the ridiculousness of it, how small she'll become. The big
one bends down to help her. Now, she thinks, though it is not until it is done
that she understands she has found the courage to do it, biting the soft part
of that hand, the hammock of skin between thumb and forefinger.
Caroline
sits next to Charles in the detention waiting room, no question who's the boss.
That girl could split atoms, Charles had once said. We ought to lease her to
GE.
Sorry, darling, Dorothy mouths to him. He looks at her
with his doggy yellow eyes not hearing a thing; then Caroline leads them both
out.
In
the fresh sunshine they blink; "Look how the weather's changed!"
Dorothy says, reflexively. "What a treat!"
Caroline
has opened the car door.
"Get in," she says.
They
sit in silence all the way home, the radio punched to static and static and
static then punched off, again, then the familiar drive, the front door, the
hallway, the kitchen. Caroline makes tea and calls a
what-there-is-of-the-Family Meeting, Liz trapped in the city, attempting
another pregnancy (busy, busy, busy!), and the hole in the place where James
would have been. Dorothy steps into it and wanders around while Caroline speaks
of Responsibility and Reputation and Appropriate Behavior, and yes, Patriotism,
but mostly, mostly, mostly, Mother, Embarrassment.
"And
what of history?" Dorothy says. "Lineage?"
"Mother,"
Caroline says. "I'm at wit's end."
Dorothy
would like to cradle Caroline in her arms, Caroline sleepy and hatted and a bit
jaundice yellow, but she cannot. Caroline has grown; she's taller than Dorothy
and now divorced and a multimillionaire, she has confessed. Mill-ions, she said.
"Where
are your friends, Mother?" Caroline asks.
Dorothy
shrugs. She hasn't thought of friends recently, nor her standing Wednesday at
Sheer Perfection; her hair's gone shaggy and her cuticles have grown over their
moons.
"I'm
sorry, darling," she says. "I'll stop."
(Continues...)
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