Joan Didion
Interviewed by Linda Kuehl
Joan Didion in 1955
The Paris Review - The Art of Fiction No. 71
It is usual for the interviewer to write
this paragraph about the circumstances in which the interview was conducted,
but the interviewer in this case, Linda Kuehl, died not long after the tapes
were transcribed. Linda and I talked on August 18 and August 24, 1977, from
about ten in the morning until early afternoon. Both interviews took place in
the living room of my husband's and my house on the ocean north of Los Angeles,
a house we no longer own. The walls in that room were white. The floors were of
terracotta tile, very highly polished. The glare off the sea was so pronounced
in that room that corners of it seemed, by contrast, extremely dark, and
everyone who sat in the room tended to gravitate toward these dark corners.
Over the years the room had in fact evolved to the point where the only
comfortable chairs were in the dark, away from the windows. I mention this
because I remember my fears about being interviewed, one of which was that I
would be construed as the kind of loon who had maybe 300 degrees of sea view
and kept all the chairs in a kind of sooty nook behind the fireplace. Linda's
intelligence dispelled these fears immediately. Her interest in and acuity about
the technical act of writing made me relaxed and even enthusiastic about
talking, which I rarely am. As a matter of fact, this enthusiasm for talking
technically makes me seem to myself, as I read over the transcript, a kind of
apprentice plumber of fiction, a Cluny Brown at the writer's trade, but there
we were.
INTERVIEWER
You have
said that writing is a hostile act; I have always wanted to ask you why.
JOAN DIDION
It's hostile
in that you're trying to make somebody see something the way you see it, trying
to impose your idea, your picture. It's hostile to try to wrench around someone
else's mind that way. Quite often you want to tell somebody your dream, your
nightmare. Well, nobody wants to hear about someone else's dream, good or bad;
nobody wants to walk around with it. The writer is always tricking the reader
into listening to the dream.
INTERVIEWER
Are you
conscious of the reader as you write? Do you write listening to the reader
listening to you?
DIDION
Obviously I
listen to a reader, but the only reader I hear is me. I am always writing to
myself. So very possibly I'm committing an aggressive and hostile act toward
myself.
INTERVIEWER
So when you
ask, as you do in many nonfiction pieces, “Do you get the point?” you are
really asking if you yourself get the point.
DIDION
Yes. Once in
a while, when I first started to write pieces, I would try to write to a reader
other than myself. I always failed. I would freeze up.
INTERVIEWER
When did you
know you wanted to write?
DIDION
I wrote
stories from the time I was a little girl, but I didn't want to be a writer. I
wanted to be an actress. I didn't realize then that it's the same impulse. It's
make-believe. It's performance. The only difference being that a writer can do
it all alone. I was struck a few years ago when a friend of ours—an actress—was
having dinner here with us and a couple of other writers. It suddenly occurred
to me that she was the only person in the room who couldn't plan what she was
going to do. She had to wait for someone to ask her, which is a strange way to
live.
INTERVIEWER
Did you ever
have a writing teacher?
DIDION
Mark Schorer
was teaching at Berkeley when I was an undergraduate there, and he helped me. I
don't mean he helped me with sentences, or paragraphs—nobody has time for that
with student papers; I mean that he gave me a sense of what writing was about,
what it was for.
INTERVIEWER
Did any
writer influence you more than others?
DIDION
I always say
Hemingway, because he taught me how sentences worked. When I was fifteen or sixteen
I would type out his stories to learn how the sentences worked. I taught myself
to type at the same time. A few years ago when I was teaching a course at
Berkeley I reread A Farewell to Arms and fell right back into those
sentences. I mean they're perfect sentences. Very direct sentences, smooth
rivers, clear water over granite, no sinkholes.
INTERVIEWER
You've
called Henry James an influence.
DIDION
He wrote
perfect sentences, too, but very indirect, very complicated. Sentences withsinkholes.
You could drown in them. I wouldn't dare to write one. I'm not even sure I'd
dare to read James again. I loved those novels so much that I was paralyzed by
them for a long time. All those possibilities. All that perfectly reconciled
style. It made me afraid to put words down.
INTERVIEWER
I wonder if
some of your nonfiction pieces aren't shaped as a single Jamesian sentence.
DIDION
That would
be the ideal, wouldn't it. An entire piece—eight, ten, twenty pages—strung on a
single sentence. Actually, the sentences in my nonfiction are far more
complicated than the sentences in my fiction. More clauses. More semicolons. I
don't seem to hear that many clauses when I'm writing a novel.
INTERVIEWER
You have
said that once you have your first sentence you've got your piece. That's what
Hemingway said. All he needed was his first sentence and he had his short
story.
DIDION
What's so
hard about that first sentence is that you're stuck with it. Everything else is
going to flow out of that sentence. And by the time you've laid down the first twosentences,
your options are all gone.
INTERVIEWER
The first is
the gesture, the second is the commitment.
DIDION
Yes, and the
last sentence in a piece is another adventure. It should open the piece up. It
should make you go back and start reading from page one. That's how it should be, but it doesn't always work. I
think of writing anything at all as a kind of high-wire act. The minute you
start putting words on paper you're eliminating possibilities. Unless you're
Henry James.
INTERVIEWER
I wonder if
your ethic—what you call your “harsh Protestant ethic”—doesn't close things up
for you, doesn't hinder your struggle to keep all the possibilities open.
DIDION
I suppose
that's part of the dynamic. I start a book and I want to make it perfect, want
it to turn every color, want it to be the world. Ten pages in,
I've already blown it, limited it, made it less, marred it. That's very
discouraging. I hate the book at that point. After a while I arrive at an
accommodation: Well, it's not the ideal, it's not the perfect object I wanted
to make, but maybe—if I go ahead and finish it anyway—I can get it right next
time. Maybe I can have another chance.
INTERVIEWER
Have any
women writers been strong influences?
DIDION
I think only
in the sense of being models for a life, not for a style. I think that the
Brontës probably encouraged my own delusions of theatricality. Something about
George Eliot attracted me a great deal. I think I was not temperamentally
attuned to either Jane Austen or Virginia Woolf.
INTERVIEWER
What are the
disadvantages, if any, of being a woman writer?
DIDION
When I was
starting to write—in the late fifties, early sixties—there was a kind of social
tradition in which male novelists could operate. Hard drinkers, bad livers.
Wives, wars, big fish, Africa, Paris, no second acts. A man who wrote novels
had a role in the world, and he could play that role and do whatever he wanted
behind it. A woman who wrote novels had no particular role. Women who wrote
novels were quite often perceived as invalids. Carson McCullers, Jane Bowles.
Flannery O'Connor, of course. Novels by women tended to be described, even by
their publishers, as sensitive. I'm not sure this is so true anymore, but it
certainly was at the time, and I didn't much like it. I dealt with it the same
way I deal with everything. I just tended my own garden, didn't pay much
attention, behaved—I suppose—deviously. I mean I didn't actually let too many
people know what I was doing.
INTERVIEWER
Advantages?
DIDION
The
advantages would probably be precisely the same as the disadvantages. A certain
amount of resistance is good for anybody. It keeps you awake.
INTERVIEWER
Can you tell
simply from the style of writing, or the sensibility, if the author is a woman?
DIDION
Well, if
style is character—and I believe it is—then obviously your sexual identity is
going to show up in your style. I don't want to differentiate between style and
sensibility, by the way. Again, your style is your sensibility. But this whole
question of sexual identity is very tricky. If I were to read, cold, something
by Anaïs Nin, I would probably say that it was written by a man trying to write
as a woman. I feel the same way about Colette, and yet both those women are
generally regarded as intensely “feminine” writers. I don't seem to recognize
“feminine.” On the other hand, Victory seems to me a profoundly female novel.
So does Nostromo, so does The
Secret Agent.
INTERVIEWER
Do you find
it easy to write in depth about the opposite sex?
DIDION
Run
River was partly from a man's
point of view. Everett McClellan. I don't remember those parts as being any
harder than the other parts. A lot of people thought Everett was “shadowy,”
though. He's the most distinct person in the book to me. I loved him. I loved
Lily and Martha, but I loved Everett more.
INTERVIEWER
Was Run
River your first
novel? It seems so finished for a first that I thought you might have shelved
earlier ones.
DIDION
I've put
away nonfiction things, but I've never put away a novel. I might throw out
forty pages and write forty new ones, but it's all part of the same novel. I
wrote the first half ofRun
River at night over a
period of years. I was working at Vogue during the day, and at night I would
work on these scenes for a novel. In no particular sequence. When I finished a
scene I would tape the pages together and pin the long strips of pages on the
wall of my apartment. Maybe I wouldn't touch it for a month or two, then I'd
pick a scene off the wall and rewrite it. When I had about a hundred and fifty
pages done I showed them to twelve publishers, all of whom passed. The
thirteenth, Ivan Obolensky, gave me an advance, and with that thousand dollars
or whatever it was I took a two-month leave of absence and wrote the last half
of the book. That's why the last half is better than the first half. I kept
trying to run the first half through again, but it was intractable. It was set.
I'd worked on it for too many years in too many moods. Not that the last half
is perfect. It's smoother, it moves faster, but there are a great many
unresolved problems. I didn't know how to do anything at all. I had wanted Run
River to be very
complicated chronologically, to somehow have the past and present operating
simultaneously, but I wasn't accomplished enough to do that with any clarity.
Everybody who read it said it wasn't working. So I straightened it out. Present
time to flashback to present time. Very straight. I had no option, because I
didn't know how to do it the other way. I just wasn't good enough.
INTERVIEWER
Did you or Jonathan
Cape put the comma in the title of the English edition?
DIDION
It comes
back to me that Cape put the comma in and Obolensky left the comma out, but it
wasn't of very much interest to me because I hated it both ways. The working
title was In the Night Season, which
Obolensky didn't like. Actually, the working title during the first half was Harvest
Home, which everybody dismissed out of hand as uncommercial,
although later there was a big commercial book by Thomas Tyron called exactly
that. Again, I was not very sure of myself then, or I never would have changed
the title.
INTERVIEWER
Was the book
autobiographical? I ask this for the obvious reason that first novels often
are.
DIDION
It wasn't
except that it took place in Sacramento. A lot of people there seemed to think
that I had somehow maligned them and their families, but it was just a made-up
story. The central incident came from a little one-inch story in The
New York Times about
a trial in the Carolinas. Someone was on trial for killing the foreman on his
farm, that's all there was. I think I really put the novel in Sacramento
because I was homesick. I wanted to remember the weather and the rivers.
INTERVIEWER
The heat on
the rivers?
DIDION
The heat. I
think that's the way the whole thing began. There's a lot of landscape that I
never would have described if I hadn't been homesick. If I hadn't wanted to
remember. The impulse was nostalgia. It's not an uncommon impulse among
writers. I noticed it when I was reading From Here to Eternity in Honolulu just after James Jones
died. I could see exactly that kind of nostalgia, that yearning for a place,
overriding all narrative considerations. The incredible amount of description.
When Prewitt tries to get from the part of town where he's been wounded out to
Alma's house, every street is named. Every street is described. You could take
that passage and draw a map of Honolulu. None of those descriptions have any
narrative meaning. They're just remembering. Obsessive remembering. I could see
the impulse.
INTERVIEWER
But doesn't
the impulse of nostalgia produce the eloquence in Run
River?
DIDION
It's got a
lot of sloppy stuff. Extraneous stuff. Words that don't work. Awkwardness.
Scenes that should have been brought up, scenes that should have been played
down. But then Play It As It Lays has a lot of sloppy stuff. I haven't
reread Common Prayer, but I'm sure that does, too.
INTERVIEWER
How did you
come to terms with point of view in Play It As It Lays? Did you
ever question your authority to do it in both first and third person?
DIDION
I wanted to
make it all first person, but I wasn't good enough to maintain at first. There
were tricks I didn't know. So I began playing with a close third person, just
to get something down. By a “close third” I mean not an omniscient third but a
third very close to the mind of the character. Suddenly one night I realized
that I had some first person and some third person and that I was going to have
to go with both, or just not write a book at all. I was scared. Actually, I don't
mind the way it worked out. The juxtaposition of first and third turned out to
be very useful toward the ending, when I wanted to accelerate the whole thing.
I don't think I'd do it again, but it was a solution to that particular set of
problems. There's a point when you go with what you've got. Or you don't go.
INTERVIEWER
How long, in
all, did Play It As It Lays take to write?
DIDION
I made notes
and wrote pages over several years, but the actual physical writing—sitting
down at the typewriter and working every day until it was finished—took me from
January until November 1969. Then of course I had to run it through again—I
never know quite what I'm doing when I'm writing a novel, and the actual line
of it doesn't emerge until I'm finishing. Before I ran it through again I
showed it to John and then I sent it to Henry Robbins, who was my editor then
at Farrar, Straus. It was quite rough, with places marked “chapter to come.”
Henry was unalarmed by my working that way, and he and John and I sat down one night
in New York and talked, for about an hour before dinner, about what it needed
doing. We all knew what it needed. We all agreed. After that I took a couple of
weeks and ran it through. It was just typing and pulling the line through.
INTERVIEWER
What do you
mean exactly by “pulling through”?
DIDION
For example,
I didn't know that BZ was an important character in Play
It As It Laysuntil the last few weeks I was working on it. So those
places I marked “chapter to come” were largely places where I was going to go
back and pull BZ through, hit him harder, prepare for the way it finally went.
INTERVIEWER
How did you
feel about BZ's suicide at the end?
DIDION
I didn't
realize until after I'd written it that it was essentially the same ending as Run
River. The women let the men commit suicide.
INTERVIEWER
I read that Play
It As It Lays crystallized
for you when you were sitting in the lobby of the Riviera Hotel in Las Vegas
and saw a girl walk through.
DIDION
I had
thought Maria lived in New York. Maybe she was a model. Anyway, she was getting
a divorce, going through grief. When I saw this actress in the Riviera Hotel,
it occurred to me that Maria could be an actress. In California.
INTERVIEWER
Was she
always Maria Wyeth?
DIDION
She didn't
even have a name. Sometimes I'll be fifty, sixty pages into something and I'll
still be calling a character “X.” I don't have a very clear idea of who the
characters are until they start talking. Then I start to love them. By the time
I finish the book, I love them so much that I want to stay with them. I don't
want to leave them ever.
INTERVIEWER
Do your
characters talk to you?
DIDION
After a
while. In a way. When I started Common Prayer, all I knew about Charlotte was that
she was a nervous talker and told pointless stories. A distracted kind of
voice. Then one day I was writing the Christmas party at the American embassy,
and I had Charlotte telling these bizarre anecdotes with no point while Victor
Strasser-Mendana keeps trying to find out who she is, what she's doing in Boca Grande,
who her husband is, what her husband does. And suddenly Charlotte says, “He
runs guns. I wish they had caviar.” Well, when I heard Charlotte say this, I
had a very clear fix on who she was. I went back and rewrote some early stuff.
INTERVIEWER
Did you
reshuffle a lot and, if so, how? Did you use pins or tape or what?
DIDION
Toward the
beginning of a novel I'll write a lot of sections that lead me nowhere. So I'll
abandon them, pin them on a board with the idea of picking them up later. Quite
early inCommon Prayer I wrote a part about Charlotte Douglas
going to airports, a couple of pages that I liked but couldn't seem to find a
place for. I kept picking this part up and putting it in different places, but
it kept stopping the narrative; it was wrong everywhere, but I was determined
to use it. Finally I think I put it in the middle of the book. Sometimes you
can get away with things in the middle of a book. The first hundred pages are
very tricky, the first forty pages especially. You have to make sure you have
the characters you want. That's really the most complicated part.
INTERVIEWER
Strategy
would seem to be far more complicated in Common Prayer than in Play
It As It Lays because
it had so much more plot.
DIDION
Common
Prayer had a lot of plot and an
awful lot of places and weather. I wanted a dense texture, and so I kept
throwing stuff into it, making promises. For example, I promised a revolution.
Finally, when I got within twenty pages of the end, I realized I still hadn't
delivered this revolution. I had a lot of threads, and I'd overlooked this one.
So then I had to go back and lay in the preparation for the revolution. Putting
in that revolution was like setting in a sleeve. Do you know what I mean? Do
you sew? I mean I had to work that revolution in on the bias, had to ease out
the wrinkles with my fingers.
INTERVIEWER
So the
process of writing the novel is for you the process of discovering the precise
novel that you want to write.
DIDION
Exactly. At
the beginning I don't have anything at all, don't have any people, any weather,
any story. All I have is a technical sense of what I want to do. For example, I
want sometime to write a very long novel, eight hundred pages. I want to write
an eight-hundred-page novel precisely because I think a novel should be read at one
sitting. If you read a novel over a period of days or weeks the threads get
lost, the suspension breaks. So the problem is to write an eight-hundred-page
novel in which all the filaments are so strong that nothing breaks or gets forgotten
ever. I wonder if García Márquez didn't do that in The
Autumn of the Patriarch. I don't want to read it because I'm afraid
he might have done it, but I did look at it, and it seems to be written in a
single paragraph. One paragraph. The whole
novel. I love that idea.
INTERVIEWER
Do you have
any writing rituals?
DIDION
The most
important is that I need an hour alone before dinner, with a drink, to go over
what I've done that day. I can't do it late in the afternoon because I'm too
close to it. Also, the drink helps. It removes me from the pages. So I spend
this hour taking things out and putting other things in. Then I start the next
day by redoing all of what I did the day before, following these evening notes.
When I'm really working I don't like to go out or have anybody to dinner,
because then I lose the hour. If I don't have the hour, and start the next day
with just some bad pages and nowhere to go, I'm in low spirits. Another thing I
need to do, when I'm near the end of the book, is sleep in the same room with
it. That's one reason I go home to Sacramento to finish things. Somehow the
book doesn't leave you when you're asleep right next to it. In Sacramento
nobody cares if I appear or not. I can just get up and start typing.
INTERVIEWER
What's the
main difference between the process of fiction and the process of nonfiction?
DIDION
The element
of discovery takes place, in nonfiction, not during the writing but during the
research. This makes writing a piece very tedious. You already know what it's about.
INTERVIEWER
Are the
subject of pieces determined by editors or are you free to go your own way?
DIDION
I make them
up. They reflect what I want to do at the time, where I want to be. When I
worked for Life I did a great many Honolulu
pieces—probably more than Life might have wanted—because that's where
I wanted to be then. Last night I finished a piece for Esquireabout
the California Water Project. I had always wanted to see the room where they
control the water, where they turn it on and off all over the state, and I also
wanted to see my mother and father. The water and my mother and father were all
in Sacramento, so I went to Sacramento. I like to do pieces because it forces
me to make appointments and see people, but I never wanted to be a journalist
or reporter. If I were doing a story and it turned into a big breaking story,
all kinds of teams flying in from papers and magazines and the networks, I'd
probably think of something else to do.
INTERVIEWER
You've said
that when you were an editor at Vogue, Allene Talmey showed you how verbs
worked.
DIDION
Every day I
would go into her office with eight lines of copy or a caption or something.
She would sit there and mark it up with a pencil and get very angry about extra
words, about verbs not working. Nobody has time to do that except on a magazine
like Vogue. Nobody, no teacher. I've taught and I've
tried to do it, but I didn't have that much time and neither did the students.
In an eight-line caption everything had to work, every word, every comma. It
would end up being a Vogue caption, but on its own terms it had
to work perfectly.
INTERVIEWER
You say you
treasure privacy, that “being left alone and leaving others alone is regarded
by members of my family as the highest form of human endeavor.” How does this
mesh with writing personal essays, particularly the first column you did for Life where you felt it imperative to inform
the reader that you were at the Royal Hawaiian Hotel in lieu of getting a
divorce?
DIDION
I don't
know. I could say that I was writing to myself, and of course I was, but it's a
little more complicated than that. I mean the fact that eleven million people
were going to see that page didn't exactly escape my attention. There's a lot
of mystery to me about writing and performing and showing off in general. I
know a singer who throws up every time she has to go onstage. But she still
goes on.
INTERVIEWER
How did the
“fragility of Joan Didion” myth start?
DIDION
Because I'm
small, I suppose, and because I don't talk a great deal to people I don't know.
Most of my sentences drift off, don't end. It's a habit I've fallen into. I
don't deal well with people. I would think that this appearance of not being
very much in touch was probably one of the reasons I started writing.
INTERVIEWER
Do you think
some reviewers and readers have mistaken you for your characters?
DIDION
There was a
certain tendency to read Play It As It Lays as an autobiographical novel, I
suppose because I lived out here and looked skinny in photographs and nobody
knew anything else about me. Actually, the only thing Maria and I have in
common is an occasional inflection, which I picked up from her—not vice
versa—when I was writing the book. I like Maria a lot. Maria was very strong,
very tough.
INTERVIEWER
That's where
I have difficulty with what so many critics have said about your women. Your women
hardly seem fragile to me.
DIDION
Did you read
Diane Johnson's review of Common Prayer in The New York Review of Books?
She suggested that the women were strong to the point of being figures in a
romance, that they were romantic heroines rather than actual women in actual
situations. I think that's probably true. I think I write romances.
INTERVIEWER
I'd like to
ask you about things that recur in your work. There's the line about “dirty
tulips” on Park Avenue in a short story and in a piece. Or how about the large,
square emerald ring that Lily wears in Run River and Charlotte wears in Common
Prayer?
DIDION
Does Lily
wear one, too? Maybe she does. I've always wanted one, but I'd never buy one.
For one thing emeralds—when you look at them closely—are always disappointing.
The green is never blue enough. Ideally, if the green were blue enough you
could look into an emerald for the rest of your life. Sometimes I think about
Katherine Anne Porter's emeralds, sometimes I wonder if they're blue enough. I
hadn't planned that emerald inCommon
Prayer to recur the
way it does. It was just something I thought Charlotte might have, but as I
went along the emerald got very useful. I kept taking that emerald one step
further. By the end of the novel the emerald is almost the narrative. I had a
good time with that emerald.
INTERVIEWER
What about
the death of a parent, which seems to recur as a motif?
DIDION
You know how
doctors who work with children get the children to tell stories? And they
figure out from the stories what's frightening the child, what's worrying the
child, what the child thinks? Well, a novel is just a story. You work things
out in the stories you tell.
INTERVIEWER
And the
abortion or loss of a child?
DIDION
The death of
children worries me all the time. It's on my mind. Even I know that, and I usually don't know
what's on my mind. On the whole, I don't want to think too much about why I
write what I write. If I know what I'm doing I don't do it, I can't do it. The
abortion inPlay It As It Lays didn't occur to me until I'd written
quite a bit of the book. The book needed an active moment, a moment at which
things changed for Maria, a moment in which—this was very, very important—Maria
was center stage for a number of pages. Not at a party reacting to somebody
else. Not just thinking about her lot in life, either. A long section in which
she was the main player. The abortion was a narrative strategy.
INTERVIEWER
Was it a
narrative strategy in Run River?
DIDION
Actually, it
was the excuse for a digression, into landscape. Lily has an abortion in San
Francisco and then she comes home on the Greyhound bus. I always think of the
Greyhound bus and not the abortion. The bus part is very detailed about the
look of the towns. It's something I wrote in New York; you can tell I was
homesick.
INTERVIEWER
How about
the freeways that reappear?
DIDION
Actually, I don't drive on the freeway. I'm afraid to. I freeze at the top of
the entrance, at the instant when you have to let go and join it. Occasionally
I do get
on the freeway—usually because I'm shamed into it—and it's such an
extraordinary experience that it sticks in my mind. So I use it.
INTERVIEWER
And the
white space at the corner of Sunset and La Brea in Hollywood? You mention it in
some piece and then in Play It As It Lays.
DIDION
I've never
analyzed it, but one line of poetry I always have in mind is the line from Four
Quartets: “at the still point of the turning world.” I tend to move
toward still points. I think of the equator as a still point. I suppose that's
why I put Boca Grande on the equator.
INTERVIEWER
A narrative
strategy.
DIDION
Well, this
whole question of how you work out the narrative is very mysterious. It's a good
deal more arbitrary than most people who don't do it would ever believe. When I
started Play It As It Lays I gave Maria a child, a daughter,
Kate, who was in kindergarten. I remember writing a passage in which Kate came
home from school and showed Maria a lot of drawings, orange and blue crayon
drawings, and when Maria asked her what they were, Kate said, “Pools on fire.”
You can see I wasn't having too much success writing this child. So I put her
in a hospital. You never meet her. Now, it turned out to have a great deal of
importance—Kate's being in the hospital is a very large element in Play
It As It Lays—but it began because I couldn't write a child, no
other reason. Again, in Common Prayer,Marin bombs the
Transamerica Building because I needed her to. I needed a crisis in
Charlotte's life. Well, at this very moment, right now, I can't think of the
Transamerica Building without thinking of Marin and her pipe bomb and her gold
bracelet, but it was all very arbitrary in the beginning.
INTERVIEWER
What misapprehensions,
illusions and so forth have you had to struggle against in your life? In a
commencement address you once said there were many.
DIDION
All kinds. I
was one of those children who tended to perceive the world in terms of things
read about it. I began with a literary idea of experience, and I still don't
know where all the lies are. For example, it may not be true that people who
try to fly always burst into flames and fall. That may not be true at all. In
fact people do fly, and land safely. But
I don't really believe that. I still see Icarus. I don't seem to have a set of
physical facts at my disposal, don't seem to understand how things really work.
I just have an idea of how they work, which is always
trouble. As Henry James told us.
INTERVIEWER
You seem to
live your life on the edge, or, at least, on the literary idea of the edge.
DIDION
Again, it's
a literary idea, and it derives from what engaged me imaginatively as a child.
I can recall disapproving of the golden mean, always thinking there was more to
be learned from the dark journey. The dark journey engaged me more. I once had
in mind a very light novel, all surface, all conversations and memories and
recollections of some people in Honolulu who were getting along fine, one or
two misapprehensions about the past notwithstanding. Well, I'm working on that
book now, but it's not running that way at all. Not at all.
INTERVIEWER
It always
turns into danger and apocalypse.
DIDION
Well, I grew
up in a dangerous landscape. I think people are more affected than they know by
landscapes and weather. Sacramento was a very extreme place. It was very flat,
flatter than most people can imagine, and I still favor flat horizons. The
weather in Sacramento was as extreme as the landscape. There were two rivers,
and these rivers would flood in the winter and run dry in the summer. Winter
was cold rain and tulle fog. Summer was 100 degrees, 105 degrees, 110 degrees.
Those extremes affect the way you deal with the world. It so happens that if
you're a writer the extremes show up. They don't if you sell insurance.
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